Update

Sorry for not writing and updating sooner, we haven't had internet access at the house and my blackberry is really not the easiest to blog from.
The fertility treatments have stopped for now, we went back to the Dr in February and I had some cysts that they were concerned about, so they put me back on birth control for that cycle to clean things up. By the next cycle, Travis and I had done a lot of thinking, praying and discussing. We came to the conclusion that even though we are spending $2,000 a month on treatments, it's still Heavenly Fathers time line, and I felt like we were throwing the money away. So we are back to birth control so that all my other symptoms are under control. It has actually been an easy decision and I am glad that it was a decision that both Travis and I made together. I appreciate all the love, support, and prayers that my family and friends have given. Someday we will understand why things are the way they are.

Maybe next month

So I have been dreading this week. I knew that I had to make it all the way to Friday without starting my period so I could take a pregnancy test.
Pregnancy test are a hard thing for me. After 9 1/2 years of negative ones, the thought of having to take another is a daunting task.
So last night I started to spot and all the emotions of 9 1/2 years of trying came back. I know the Lord has a plan for me, I just wish I knew what it was so I could plan accourdingly.
So now we go back to the dr and try again. This journey is lonf and hard but I know that its worth it.

The Last Night

So tonight is the last night of my "youth". Not that I feel 30 is old, I guess I just always saw myself at a different place by the time I was 30. My Mom had all 5 of her kids by my age and Travis' Mom had 8 of hers. Most of my friends are sending their oldest to kindergarden and talking about having their 3rd or 4th.
I am greatful for my wonderful marriage and even thankful for the 9.5 years we have had to really get to know each other and learn to work well together. I think that it's fitting that as I leave my "roaring" 20's behind that I look forward to starting the next chapter hopefully with some good news on the baby front. Good bye youth, hello tomorrow

Everything is good

So at my Dr appt today he said that I have 4 follicules that are big enough to release eggs. He gave me my last injection to take tonight that will force me to ovulate. So we are instructed to have "fun" tonight and tomorrow then wait two weeks to see if it worked. Its been a long week and a half, and a really expensive one too. We figured we have spent approxemitly $1800. not including gas for the 2 hour, each way, trip. Thanks for all your prayers and keep them coming.

More Dr appt

So yesterday I went to the Dr again to have the levels checked out. He did an ultrasound and said things look good. He decreased my dosage a little, did some blood work and wants to see me Monday to check again. I'm very thankful for my best friend Becca for going with me. Travis had a basketball game he was coaching so she came with me. After Monday if the levels are good, then he will give me a shot to induce ovulation. Then we wait to see if it works.

Dr appt

So today we went back to the fertility Dr. I start the injections tonight (Follistim). Then I go back to LA to the Dr on friday to make sure the current doasage is enough. I guess that I should be excited,but the shock of the price tag has still not wore off. I'll try and keep my blog updated as we continue on.

Playing Santa

So this year we got the opportunity to help play Santa. We had friends with kids ask to use our house to store the Santa gifts. Also because we have our Expedition we offered to go and drop off the gifts after the kids all went to bed. One mother asked if she gave us the money we could go and pick out bikes for her kids. We have a big enough car that we could bring them back. So tonight we loaded up 3 bikes and delivered them to the home of 3 boys who thought that they had opened all their Christmas presants Christmas Eve. It was so fun to sneak up to the house whispering and quietly putting the bikes in the living room.
After that adventure, we got to help move some of the gifts for another family into the car so they could be taken home and put together.
Even though we don't have our own kids to be Santa for, we have had so much fun getting to help make kids excited. I'm thankful for friends that let us be apart of their kids lives.